January 2009
19 posts
To: Jake
From: Haley
Dear Jake,
I just thought I would let you know that even though I am the worst girlfriend in the world, I actually really do like you. More then you know. So tomorrow night we are going to have fun.
Now for something I should admit. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I can’t tell you how I feel and show you how important you are. I have never been an emotional person on the...
Girls,
We have it harder then any boy or man will ever know. The pain and struggles, the smiles we fake to pretend we have it all together. The pressure we have to be perfect. Our dreams that are built up and then crushed by someone not worth it. Our vulnerable hearts that are taken for granted. The tears shed that are known to no one. The depths of our hearts full of secrets we are to afraid to admit....
I Have Found
Beauty in everything.
A way to push through.
The right choice.
The right attitude.
What it means to be a puzzle.
How to obtain faith.
Confidence.
Peace.
How to enjoy the quiet moments.
How to not care.
My true friends.
That people judge, but your job is to love.
This world doesn’t care about you.
That’s alright.
You should not be afraid, of anything.
If you want...
Would it be wrong to say I want to love? Would it be wrong to think I’m incapable of feeling? Why I am I so hardened? Why can’t I cry when I’m sad? Why can’t I just let go of what is inside. It’s bursting out but I can’t express it because of the way I am. I just want to scream! I don’t know what to say. I pretend because I don’t know what else to...
Falling
Oh how I am
I didn’t know laughing was apart of this
Friendship?
Since when.
Wow, please don’t let go,
I want to go deeper, but not to deep.
I’ll give you what I can.
No matter who I talk about, your still number one in my
heart.
Love,
I think I have let go, I think that for now, I’m done. I just don’t get what he sees in me. Oh how I wish I were perfect for him. Maybe to him I am, but to me I’m not. Maybe it really is me, after all I’m the one screwing it up. One thing that really gets to me about him is how much he really does want to love me. Maybe he does, maybe the only thing stopping him, is me....
#25
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me
He loves me,
but I don’t feel worth it.
I feel...
ugly.
Goodbye my almost lover,
To move on in life sometimes,
you just have to let go.
I don’t want to, but I have to
for now.
It’s not fair.
But I will try.
Two choices.
up or down
I choose,
up.
Sometimes we make mistakes. Look both ways and choose the one that will improve your heart. Don’t forget who you are and what you are capable of.
Let go
Making it count
So much yet I am so little.
New Year=2009
I told myself it would be stupid to right out resolutions but I want to take on a challenge.
Fall in love, with Jesus
Make an impact in someone’s life
Volunteer more
Work on my attitude towards my parents
Learn to love
Look good in time for summer
Work on my shot for basketball
Work my hardest in school
Work on not judging so easily
...
You got so much love in you
Being happy is just like loving.
It’s not a feeling but a choice.
And if you choose to be happy you find that in time you start to feel joy.
Leave
don’t, but please do.
I can’t stand it. Everything just makes me confused.
I’ve been decived. This torture has got to stop. You are making my life a dream.
Your my fantasy. What my life revolves around. My life is this heavenly hell
And the thing is, you don’t know. Or if you do, and I pray to God you don’t, this cruelty has got to stop.
I am strong enough, I...
“Nothing’s gonna change my world.”
– My loves
Today was beautiful. It was so different then how I would plan a perfect day. I had messy hair and just a chill attitude I went shopping and bought Jake a shirt. I saw Benjamen Button then came home and found out something very surprising. It has me somewhat confused. If it’s true at least. But I’m not upset at all. I’m actually happy. I think. Well, I just can’t tell. Yes,...