December 2011
72 posts
Why I am still happy when I’m so sad?!
I can’t ever be in one complete emotion. It’s always happiness and whatever I should be feeling. It’s going to drive me insane.
But it won’t, it will eventually just lead me to peace and on to an incredible life.
And I’m thankful for that.
Why can’t I just cry already?
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
Let’s see what five months of no contact does.
I don’t know what to do.
I have no idea what to do.
I don’t know what is going on.
I don’t know anything that ever went on.
I’m mad. I’m frustrated. I feel helpless.
Usually when I get this way I drop it, like that. I forget about everything involved in the situation and look away. I look towards the future and forget about the present. It’s why I’m...
My Wedding
Spaghetti and meatballs.
Bubbles.
Mason jars.
Butterflies.
Fireflies.
Fairy lights.
Big tent with no covering.
Bagpipes.
Cellos.
Green grass.
Cool breeze.
White dress.
Him.
Drops of Jupitar.
Two prayers.
Is it bad that sometimes I want to get mad, and yell at you? I feel like there’s more strength in confiding in peace though, and patience. I still want to just scream though. And cry. Not because I hurt, because I want to relieve myself of what’s happening.
dancing through life: Never complain. Be calm.... →
haleyalexandra:
Never complain.
Be calm.
Never worry or stress.
Sit back and open your eyes.
Keep your mouth shut.
Dance, seriously just dance.
Make believe everything.
Smile for just being able to breath.
Let others take the spot light.
Never ever ever ever judge anyone, ever.
Compliment everyone.
…
If I were ever brave enough this is what I would...
I liked you so much. My first faith based crush was on you. I wasn’t even attracted to you when I first met you, then you showed me your sense of humor, then you showed me your friendship, then you showed me little tiny pieces of your heart, then you started drifting, then I left because in all of our hearts lies a deep longing for adventure. I didn’t leave my feelings for you behind,...
Disappointed with the last book of The Hunger Games.
It was so lifeless.
Such a shame because it was an incredible build up to an end like that.
Excuse me while I have a moment of questions rushing from my heart. Why did nothing happen between us? Why didn’t you try anything? Why is she good enough but I wasn’t? (Absolutely nothing against her at all whatsoever!) Did you actually like me or was it just a weird thing? Were you shy? Did you think I wasn’t in to you? I hate talking about it because I feel like I’m a...
I wonder how many kids from class are finally having their faith become real to them. In high school Jesus to me was the joyful love I rested in. He was the reason I was constantly smiling, the reason I was never stressed or worried, the reason I always did the right thing. He is still all that and more to me but he is starting to really reveal himself to me. He is becoming more real in my life,...
The Matthews Family
They’re brilliant!
I think if we put in all the qualifications of the man I want to marry, in the looks department at least, it comes out to Prince Harry. Red headed wonder without one of those nasty six packs with a smile that makes you smile because it’s so happy!
Too bad he’s not a man of God and… he’s english. That’s a problem. My redheaded wonder is going to be from Ireland, with...
Why do I keep doing this to myself? Why do I run away from the one I love the most, the one that brings the most passion and light heartedness, the one that has never left my side and the one who gives purpose and hope to my life? I claim to follow Him and I live by His ways knowing that they are true and pure and righteous. Why do I succumb to my weakness? Dance, sing, raise your eyes to the...
Another one of my friends just got engaged! What is going on?! I am really growing up?
“If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM...”
– Robert Pattinson
The Killers
They’re so awesome.
Romeo and Juliet, my personal favorite.
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“So uncomplicated and yet a mystery.”
A man just described me with these words.
It’s the eye contact I want. And a hand I can observe. I want the moments where we talk and our eyes meet and you lose your words. I want to where my lion hat and my converse and walk around with a man that is so lost in my world that he is totally oblivious to everything spinning around us. The walks I would take him on, the places I would show him. A world he lives in but is unaware of. I...
I keep looking forward but I can sense you presence behind me without even turning around.
God is becoming so real to me. Everything I’ve done in my life is leading me to a place that God is going to use me to do life changing things. I believe in my purpose and I believe in his love. My doubts have done nothing but made me stronger and I will persevere till the day it is finished. If my God is for me, no one stands a chance.
I wish every word that goes through my mind was written down. I might have a chance of putting the pieces together that way. I discovered something today, I new way to escape. Some people use drugs, alcohol, sex. I use my voice and my body. The music plays and I release everything. It flows out of me and I’m overtaken by feeling. One day someone is going to notice the moments in my life...
I miss Morten :(
“I wish I could go back.”
For the first time in about my whole life I felt stress today. I have to raise money for my school I’m going to in Alabama which is about ten grand and on top of that I just found out I’m going to have to pay the court twenty-one hundred dollars because I got pulled over and didn’t know my insurance was in my glove compartment. Plus I can’t drive since my license is...
I just need to relax and put it in God’s hands.
I took a break from God, God never took a break from me. I did this to see what my life would be like if I never did my part in my relationship with Him. It has been absolutely awful. But it’s been good, if that’s even possible. I’ve learned a lot. I need Him, that’s the most obvious thing I have come away with....
Everyone is always angry.
I would have to say, divorced parents is equivalent to some type of venom that kills you extremely slowly. The agony of it, the older you get, the worse it gets. At least in my situation.
What if tonight was the last night of life as I know it. I woke up tomorrow and everything was drastically different. What if my time was limited to a matter of weeks but in those weeks I will have lived the equivalent of a lifetime. “Don’t be afraid of death. Be afraid of the unlived life.” It’s incredible and disturbing how much we don’t know. How much we have...
I really don’t like it when I feel like something crucial in my life is out of place, or something big is in my way and I don’t want to face it. At the end of the day though I shrug my shoulders, shake my head, grab my sword, and go conquer my obstacles. Sometimes I feel like fox though, sly and deceptive. Weave my way around things and don’t bother to think of the consequences....
Anonymous asked: 6 and 12
I wish I wasn’t so non-emotional. I mean is there anything in this world that can break me?! I’m just going through life smiling and staring out the window. I’m okay with always being happy and never letting things get me down. But some emotion would be nice. A tear or two when people leave would nice. I’m just too carefree to care. I go with the flow of my life so hardcore...
of-mice-and-myn asked: I. Love. Your. Hair. ♥
Dancing to Thirty Seconds to Mars and Dubstep music is how I get my high. I feel like a bomb that’s infinitely exploding.
“You can’t keep a good dog down!”
– All Dogs Go to Heaven