dancing through life

I’m about to write the most flat out honest post ever. 

1. Jesus is my life. I am in him and he is in me. By faith I love him now and forever. Nothing comes close to all he is. My life is no longer mine, it’s all his. What a grand life.

2. I still have feelings for a guy that have not change since they first began this past summer. Just can’t shake them. The funny thing is usually my mind would be filling with silly things about marriage and all that, but I’m so calm about boys at this point. I trust Jesus with all that I can trust him with and I know that he has a special fella that loves him with all he is to. One day He will bring us together.

3. It’s funny. I’m so confident in who I am. Who I am in my King! But I need to start eating better because I’m not as strong anymore and I’m not as fast and I’m not as agile. I miss being flexible and comfortable. Easy fix though.

4. I still have these walls up that have been there since I was capable of remembering. They all root back to some issue I have with intimacy. Not the sexual kind but the relationship kind. I’m praying in these next to months they are demolished.

5. I still struggle with addiction.

My God, Lord of all creation knows my problems. I don’t know my problems but he does. I give him all I have and in faith I know he will move mountains. Mountains in the form of brokeness, heartache, depression, everything that destroys the human body, soul, and spirit. My life has never been so complete.